tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-85385964111028527252011-11-13T19:31:39.654-08:00a chronicle through a young woman's day-to-day struggle to discover her place in the world.Lisanoreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8538596411102852725.post-90574598995955300152007-01-26T21:37:00.000-08:002007-01-26T21:52:55.415-08:00Who i am today.<br /><br />It is hard to define who I am. In short, I don't know. There are days when I'm confident about who I am but there are other days when I feel that I have no clue.<br /><br />I'm 23. I have a BA. I have a job but it isn't what I really want to do. In short, I'd love to earn a Ph. D. But I don't have time nor money to dedicate to earning something that may or may not have a job waiting for me. So I got a job. A job with potential for advancement. But I still feel inadequate around some people. I feel that my job is inferior to their grad school participation. That's when I begin to doubt who I am, and I get confused about my future.<br /><br />I just don't know anymore.<br /><br />I must stop comparing myself to others but it's a nasty habit that I just can't seem to drop. So today, in the public place of cyberspace, I'm declaring a truce with myself. I am okay and I'll be fine in the future. The choice I've made does not make me inferior to anyone.<br /><br />Desiderata, my favorite poem, warms my heart. One stanza speaks to how I feel: If only I could remember it when the green-eyed monster rears its ugly head.<br /><br /><em><span style="color:#336666;">If you compare yourself with others</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#336666;">you may become vain and bitter</span></em><br /><em><span style="color:#336666;">for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself</span></em><br /><span style="color:#336666;"><em>Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.</em> - Desiderata, Max Ehermann</span><br /><span style="color:#336666;"></span><br />If only I could remember it when the green-eyed monster rears its ugly head.<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/8538596411102852725-9057459899595530015?l=imtindomeiel.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Lisanoreply@blogger.com0